It is hard for me to believe that my dad has been gone for six months today. In some ways that night seems so recent and familiar but yet so far way and worlds apart. I remember the morning after his passing, looking out the window from my moms hospital room thinking The sun has risen? Oh my gosh the world is still turning, it felt like everything had stopped for me. As I sat there watching everyone walking into the hospital I thought to myself “they have no idea, one of the greatest men I have ever known left this world last night.” I feel like I have grown and learned so much from those first days after my dads passing.
- I have learned that although we may not be able to see our loved ones they are always with us… (I know some of you may think I am crazy, But I feel my dad with me often and a treasure those moments).
- I have learned a truly broken heart never heals… It aches all the time, some days more than others. This will be an ache I carry with me for the rest of my days. That is ok with me… It’s the love I have for my dad; It’s the yearning that I have for him.
- I have learned that those friends you only talk to on occasion (you know the ones you grew up with) Are and will always be your true friends (After all they have stuck with you this long).
- I have learned to be selective in my life with who and what I allow to influence me and who I allow to be part of my life.
- I have learned use caution when letting others into your life. But still be open hearted People are good.
- I have learned no matter how old you are you still need your parents (even if they don’t think you do, you need them and they need you too). I am the person I am today because of my Mom and My Dad and the values and morals that they taught me.
- I have learned that your parents create a sense of security (no matter your age)… It is a comfort that I am not sure anyone realizes is there until it has been shaken whether this be in death or divorce.
- I have learned no matter how hard I try I can not change anyone’s actions all I can do is continue to Pray for them and be there as much as I am allowed.
- I have learned that I am like my dad in more ways than I ever knew… (This makes me proud).
Although these are life lessons that I am sure we would all read through and think, “well yeah of course,” My prayer for my family and friends is that you truly live your life to your fullest and make sure those that you love know it… try not to get to distracted by the static in life. Remember who you are and the person you want to be. I don’t forget to have
3 comments:
Oh Jamie. I am speechless. I wrote the date today and immediately thought of your sweet father. He was an amazing man. I am honored to have known him. We truly loved him so much. I bet he is having a blast with that baby of yours. I can't wait to meet that little baby! :)
We love you and Kevin and are so blessed with your friendship. You mean so much to us. Rest assured your dad's memory lives on in many, many ways in the lives he touched while he was here. XO
Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. I absolutely love reading your posts about your Dad. I imagine him reading them and being so proud of the person you are. It's really cool that your dad is still teaching you lifes lessons from heaven. It's such a blessing to have known you all these years. Your parents did a great job raising you. I cannot wait to see you as a mother, I just know you are going to be great at it. Oh yeah one last thing I don't think you are crazy about feeling your Dad, I think it's amazing.
I love you James! And I think you learned you're stronger than you knew you were! You are amazing in every sense. I know your dad is proud of you and who you are.
I'm always here for you. Hope you know that!
Bee
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