First Comes Love…Then comes Marriage… Then comes….

Let see where do I start…  Back in April Kevin and I decided to start a family. Well On June 29th we found out we were pregnant Kevin and I were so excited and I have to admit after nine years of marriage I kind of accepted the fact that we probably were never going to have kids we would just be a dog family. Well from the beginning I had problem with this pregnancy … I spotted through out my pregnancy (Sorry for the TMI) every other day I had to go and get my HCG levels checked.  At 10 weeks I found out that I had a miscarriage (Aug 5th)It soon became clear to both Kevin and I, as to why this happened. With my Dad’s passing on Aug 9th I realized the Lord was working in our life's away that we may never understand. After everything that had happened we decided that we would hold off on getting pregnant and try again in the new year.

Lets skip forward to October… For about a week I just had an uneasy feeling not like I was going to be sick just that I needed to pay attention to my body. Well on the 27th of October I asked Kevin on the way home if we could stop and get a test… He looked at me like I was nuts I had not missed my period or anything (besides we were not trying)… He gave in and said we could but we were going to get one from the Dollar store because he did not want to waste money… (Ha Ha, I swear my hubby is not that cheap) We got home and Kevin went out to mow the lawn and I figured ahh what the heck I am going to take it now No need to wait for the Morning I am not pregnant anyways…

And there it was that little pink line… What? This can  not be right PREGNANT… I told Kevin and he just looked at me and said “Michael Phelps”… (Oh my heck… MEN!)

Pregnancy Time line (warning this is a long post..  There now you can’t say I did not warn you)

Oct  27 – Oh My Heck were are Preggers

Nov 9 – Oh No I think morning sickness is coming.

Nov 10 – Dear Sprite, I am so happy I have found you and yes, we can be friends.

Nov 11 – Fist ultrasound at 6wk3dys We have a heart beat

Nov 25 – I made it through Thanksgiving without puking… This was a huge for me…

Nov 26,27,28,29 – I am now paying for Thanksgiving… Ahhh I am hungry! Baby why cant we just keep something down. *Thank you Kevin for putting up all the Christmas decorations and letting me sleep all weekend!”

Dec 3rd – Is it possible to puke so hard you pee your pants… Answer YES! at this point I am not sure if I should laugh or cry!

Dec 7th – I did it! Broke down and bought my first pair of maternity pants… Although I am not sure I have much of a baby bump I sure do have a lot of bloat. I need to lay off the salt but its all I crave… Ramen noodles and dill pickles!

Dec 8th  - Could it be am I starting to feel human again?

Dec 9th – 10 week Apt I am nervous and scared. I had my last miscarriage at 10 weeks… The Apt went great! We have a strong Hart beat of 160 and everything looks perfect.

Dec 12th – Oh No there goes that human feeling… UGH! This is the worst day yet. I have puked in every sink, every toilet and most garbage cans in this house… That’s it, I am moving into the bathroom… 

Dec 13th-18th – I have been on the morning sickness roller coaster all week… Please stop the ride, I want OFF!

Dec 19th – There goes my love affair with dill pickles… Put those on the list of things I can no longer eat…

Dec 20th – Oh Nothing beats having Kevin pull over on the side of Antelope Dr. So I can puke at 6am… That’s all I am saying. 

Dec 21st – Introducing the worst kept secret of 2010… Yes its true my mom had just found out I was preggers (Me and my big mouth) others knew but we were trying really hard to keep it a secret from our families as we wanted to surprise them on Christmas. I have really not been looking forward to Christmas this year and this was the one thing that was making it seem like I could get through it.  Well she let it slip on live TV… I cant be mad, we now have a cute story to tell our baby… never mind apparently the best of intension sometimes comes back and bites you… There goes my cute story!

Dec 23rd – Throughout  this pregnancy I have been fighting depression, its true… I guess I should say before I was even pregnant I was fighting depression… Its been a rough year. I feel like everyone is so angry/upset at Kevin and I and our poor baby I can not sleep at night all I do is cry. I really don’t know what I should do anymore. Usually I can handle people being mad at me.. But wow it opens up a whole other set of emotions when it has to do with your unborn child. I hope things get better… I would just rather stay in bed this Christmas.

Dec 24th – Oh No… Baby we have a lot to do today.. Please  its not a good day to be sick. Thank you Kevin for getting the house ready and making everything for Fondue I am really not sure what I would do with out you.

Dec 25th – Well my Surprise did not go off quite like I had envisioned. I just wanted this Christmas to be special. It was the first Christmas without my dad and also the first Christmas knowing I was going to be a mom… I was just trying to make it happy. Don’t you hate when you have things planned in your mind and its Perfect… and in reality it doesn’t go perfect at all.   *Here is a copy of what we gave to our parents to let them know a little grandbaby was on the way **Surprise**

Dec 26th – Its official, I have the worlds best Husband! He is so sweet and caring… I have been so upset about everything that I lost focus of what is really important. the First being our Lord and Savor and the ultimate sacrifice he paid for us so that we can spend eternity with him and all of the blessings we have had and our little growing family. Thank you Kevin for taking the time to talk with me and remind me of what's really important. I LOVE YOU!

Dec 27th – Wahoo for being 13 weeks… Ok so am I in my second trimester Yet? Or is not  until next week… Hmmm.

Dec 28th-29th – Seriously I am getting so tired of puking… When does it stop… Ahhh! Well At least we know our little baby is healthy. Oh and when I seen my boss today she just smiled and said you are starting to look pregnant.. Could it be am I moving past this darn I just look chubby stage and into I look pregnant stage?

Dec 29th - I swear I felt the baby move.. Some say its possible others say its way to early… I am sticking with what I think and feel and I am pretty sure I felt our Little Nugget moving….  

Dec 30th – I know I have complained a lot on this little time line/Pregnancy journal about being sick its amazing what morning sickness can do to ones mental state… But we are SO excited, I find myself sitting and day dreaming all day. Of what this house will be like with a baby crying and then a toddler running around screaming tearing things apart… To what it will be like when they go on there first date and do I dare say start to drive…  Is it bad I am looking forward to all of this…  Nugget we are so excited for you and can not wait to meet you…

Jan 1st – Happy New Years Baby… We are so excited to welcome you this summer.

Facts About My First Trimester…

Food I lOVED: STEAK, Double cheese burger from McDonalds, Chocolate Milk, Anything salty, Ramen noodles, Sprite and of course Crystal light popsicles…

Food I HATED:  Anything sweet and A LOT of smells (Grocery Store, Jamba Juice, DIrty Dishes, Dirty Laundry.  I know it’s not all food but hey….)

Total Weight gain: Negative 7lbs