Dad,
You know me, I’ve always said Birthdays are important they are the day that you graced this world with your presence. This year is different it’s a gentle reminder that I don’t have you here with me… It’s a reminder that in years past I would be baking you a chocolate cake, and trying to figure out what in the world to get the man that has everything. It’s a reminder that you will physically not be here when Charly is Born (I tell her often she has an extra special guardian angel watching over her).It’s a reminder of all of the milestones I will miss with you. I used to think you were going to live forever, You are my dad one of the strongest men I know. I can not find the words to express how much I miss you.
Your birthday is also a reminder of all of the milestones I was able to share with you, One of my most vivid was my first pageant I was eight years old and I remember winning and the Trophy I got was taller than me, and the first thing that came to mind was “Look dad my trophy is bigger than any of yours”. Or the time in Sixth grade you took me to the daddy daughter dance, I remember you opened my door for me and I was thinking wow he does not even open moms door (She must have set him up to this). And then there was the first time you met Kevin you asked him “Do you have a job?” He answered yes and you said “Good she is expensive”… Little would we all have guessed that I would end up marrying that boy you gave a hard time to years back. I am so thankful you were there for my wedding day to walk me down the aisle. I was nervous of falling down the stairs and you told me “don’t worry I will hold you up”; And you know what you have always held Me, Justin, Mom, Kevin, Mandee, Brandon and Montana up.
Words cannot express how much I miss you. I will admit there are days that I would rather stay in bed. I struggle with why my dad why now. But I know I need to get up and be there to hold Kevin, Charly, Mom, Justin, Mandee, Brandon and Montana up. I want you to know I am trying to keep everyone together, because I know your family “Us” was the most important thing in your life. I love you dad, and I can not wait until the day I run up and give you a Big hug and smell your greasy car guy smell…
Love you always and forever… Your little girl Peaches.
2 comments:
Oh Jamie, That was beautiful, Your dad and I are so proud of the woman you have become, Your dad loves you with all his heart, and is with you always, you will always be his peaches and the apple of his eye. I am amazed at what a wonderful daughter you are, you always are there to try to hold all of us up, and I thank you for that, but you need to focus on you and Kevin and little Miss Charly, and take care of yourself, I see you trying to take on the role, and making sure everyone is happy, that I have had for so long, and I want you to just not get into the stress and you suffer from that like I am now, so you think of yourself and take care of your self and be happy, because God is in control and will hold us up, Jesus is our Rock. I love you James with all my heart and am so proud of you, I know you are going to be an amazing mommy, just as you are an amazing wife, beleive in yourself.....
Always & Forever,
Mom
very sweet post about your dad!
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